A Proper Closure

This will be a long post...
It's been a while since i post something...
Have been quite restless lately & busy too with the concert staff with many chalets & also camp!
Yesterday was py's birthday :)...enjoyed myself with the singing & food & psychoing WQ to go KL...haha...

Well it didnt ended there...haha...walked home with KY & CQ... we were walking round circle green(park near my house) :) my fav spot at night to chit chat :)

After KY left for home me & CQ finally got a chance to talk....
Yup jus in case ASG ppl are curious....I asked CQ for a 1 to 1 talk :)

Dunnoe if some of yr ah siao gals remember about my struggles regarding this relationship?
Ya, we chatted on this topic...or should i say i had a great listener beside me?(i was doing most of the tokin!)

Well to side track a little...
I attended a leaders' workshop/chalet & a 3 day christian camp :) (I joined a christian based cca in sch...if yr didn't know :) )
Something I wan to share is....God revealed to me something about this relationship....
God said not to be unequally yoked...means God doesnt wan his children(Christians) to marry/date non-Christians...


Well why?
Because as a child of God we also have a set of believes & moral values...not tat non-christians are morally not right but is because of a difference in ideology....(remember social studies) & to be honest...it really does matters....because being emotionally attached to someone will change/affect the way you think...it's like a merger of the ideology that the 2 ppl have....
Back to the point....
I have struggled with God for many months more than any of you can imagine...cos i was veri determine in making this love relationship work! It was clear that I had dishonored God by even starting this relationship...
I have to confess that it's my fault for not realising this until now.... & now i have to put this relationship to a end....

Well also every relationship has it's problems too...well which i dun think i should elaborate...
And both me & CQ has agreed to end this relationship after this chat that we had....& yes i asked for CQ his opinon about breakin up, he said he would respect my decision & i really appreciate that he didnt show any resentment to me...(at least that is the reaction he gave me)


To conclude... I really think that it's good that we can tok all this out cos i really cherish this relationship & from now i'm looking forward to build a strong friendship :) Also i dun wan this relationship to affect ASG group dynamics as well :)

And Really Finally... Some words to CQ
I really learn a lot from this relationship... & now i noe wad i would wan to expect & need from any other possible relationships that i may have next time...
Although you always tell me that i deserve someone better, i didnt think that you were not good enough...we all have our imperfect places & you really put in effort to wanna make things turn out ok... Just tat i dun wanna let us get too attached emotionally to the point where splitting up will only bring pain & hatred.... & hopefully you also learn new lessons :)


To ASG & those concern about me...
I do feel sad having to do this & even writing this entry...I dun think this courage that i had come from me...It was the love of God that i had experience that gave me this determination...er...did i say too many things?


With love,

Gloria