IMH entry no. 1 (Was I going MAD series)

Wow it's been a while since i blog...
It's not tat bloggin became boring
but just didnt have the mood :(

Hmmm this few days have been thinking a lot again(hai, quite harmful indeed)
feeling tired of my life now...(not tired of living lah) more like feel exhausted...
It's good to be a kid man!!! seriously...because THE adults will protect/ prevent/ hide away the emotional troublesome & unsolvable problems...

Growing up is tiring, the burden increase whether you choose to ignore it or not! no human of a normal kaypo mind will be able to resist mental/relational/study problems, or more like a burden.
hai....I'm super emo + angry + easily agitated now.... i dun wan to but i dun understand why i am feeling this way so often....

easily i feel like scolding ppl...sian...feel like complaining
maybe i should have complain more in the past... releases my stress
but i understand complaining doesnt help to solve issues
AVOIDing & Ignoring off course would do either...
Hai, whysome ppl dun wanna listen out to wad other ppl say?
Not hearing with Ears, but with the HEart & Mind & soul?
Why do some ppl pretend to listen?
why some ppl dun show any interest?
why can someone cut you off/ pretend you dun exist?
when there is no sight, there is the heart that hears...
but when there is no sight, the tears that flows cannot be seen
quarrel happens when we fail to hear nor see, we fail to touch other's heart

Listening is tough, hard to learn skill
Listening builds a sense of belonging
Listening only to the 'Favourites' Kills that sense of belonging,
blocks the truth, lowers self esteem & make non favourites feel bad

Why is listening so difficult?
Becos That very own voice we have overpowers every little sound that enters our ear
Do all opinions have the same weight?
How does it feel to be shut out, ignore, feel unimportant?
ppl who had the luxury of attention would know tat while i suppose....

There is a gap between rational & real numbers
there is something call complex numbers...
Haha why do you thing they are being defined in this way
because... no matter how rational you can be, tryin to solve things in a rational way...
In the real world...relationships ppl are jus too complicated!

engineers analyse physical things
psychologist analyse behavior
doctors analyse the body
scientist analyse the smallest to biggest, seen or unseen
mathematicians analyse every Abituary object(things that doesnt really exist in the first place) in the world & make it related to the real world.

Why ppl go mad?
Cos... the mathematicans taught the engineers, psychologist, scientist and everyone in the world
to use assumption, contradiction and paraphrasing nonsense to make it sound reasonable.

so ppl cant get over the contradicting statements that sounded reasonable due to paraphrasing, which came from false assumptions!

P.S: if you could even finish this entry of unstable emotions, I must really applaud you for having the patient to organize my thoughts in appropriate sequence... Mathematicians sometimes dun really care about how the sequences are being added together...while unless you stated you want it to be in order.....HaHAHAHAHA!!!!!